The Adventures of Rob

robsavestheday @ 2007-11-26T20:11:00

2007-11-27T01:15:34Z

01. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie/icon reminds me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, I'll tell you what it would be.
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. Put this in your journal!

i hope to get a new lj soon.

not many people are on here anymore.

i still read all you's guys's entries though.

a feast of friends, alive she cries,

waitin' for me, OUT, SIIIIIIIDE -

stand behind me where i can't see, look up, it's everything i don't know

2007-05-17T07:53:08Z

i think i'm tired of cushioning myself and others by avoiding awkward situations/conversations.
i was just thinking about that.

i feel like i'll change a lot this summer.
i feel like i'm changing now, a lot. my priorities are shifting.
i feel like this summer i'm going to grow more as a person, or at least i am to.
i fear this will distance me even more from my peers.
i'm worried i'm going to get lost in a vague sea of ennui like i see happen to so many people.
but then i think, i'm a different person. i'm too restless to sit around and let things happen to me.
i have a few ideas of what i want at least. i hope summer bores me to the point of action and reorganization of my life and mind. school gives me too much of an excuse for distraction, i'm bad at doing many things at one time. or at least doing them well and caring about them.
if i'm going to do something i like to put my all into that thing and set other things aside.

i've got my license. that is nice.
i've also got a terrible pseudomechanic that refuses to work on my car. it's been over a month.

i plan on a new lj soon, to fit my new person.
i never like to update this thing because i feel it is no longer me.
i might be very selective about who i add, because since noone really uses lj to communicate and make each other's lives more interesting i think i'll make it more for me.

fuck facebook and myspace for ruining interesting and lively communication and replacing it with little bliplets and layouts that we desperately define ourselves by.

school will be fun tomorrow.

-

you poor old sod, you see it's only me

2007-03-22T04:43:01Z

today was pretty fun, besides school.
i'm growing very weary towards school altogether and have developed an apathetic attitude towards the subjects and my so-called peers.
i can really feel the senioritis weighing heavily in the air, clouding thought, maligning the spirit with dreariness, disdain, and the doldrums. it sucks.

i left period 7 on senior contract and swung around the back of the school to try and catch john and ryan, running into sylvain bolting out the back door on my way.
they followed me to the front hoping to get a ride to vera's from phoebe, who was waiting and talking to collin.
unfortunately a teacher came up and grilled us about our presence, and we decided to all move along to avoid the presence of 'coach suss'.
phoebe drove ryan, john and i to dunky's to cash in on free iced coffee day, chilled for a bit, dropped them all off wherever.
got to phoebe's house where i received a text carrying the bad news that some apprently bitchy teacher caught them skipping and they all got pointed out. i really feel bad for them, since sylvain's already in hot water, eek.

picked up collin and went to china p for msg-laden foodstuffs, then went to collin's while phoebe drove her mum to the hospital to meet her meme.
josh and collin and i embarked upon a coffee adventure, planning to scour the area seeking the fruits of many free iced coffees.
we tried to find some disguises at wal-mart but to no avail. we found phag though, just as good, i hadn't seen him in a while and i liked his hair.
then just went and got some coffee.
then went and got more coffee, i got a black no sugar but i was sick of coffee at that point and didn't finish it.
then went sledding and carousing about and collin bragged of his abilities at designing his name upon the snow with that which god hath bestowed unto him.

went back to phoebe's and baked and hopped on a pogo stick and found cool clothes. collin will be looking sharp tomorrow in a red plaid button shirt, watch out ladies.
talked about identity, i thought of something i read of a while back and finally found it; it's called koan but with a line over the o. it's a really cool concept, one which is somewhat difficult to convey but if you're bored or curious mebbe give it a wiki shot.

so it's been a while since i've updated.
i haven't really felt any motivation to.
a lot of things have been lurking in and about my mind, not really in the mood to detail my thoughts but perhaps another time when i am less tired.
tomorrow i hope to go to the beach.
and friday i plan to LAZER TAG it up with some peoples.

i still read ljs and such even if i don't always comment.
i wish people would stop leaving lj, i think it's a much better social tool than myspace. myspaces are just self-contrived identities. and facebook, meh, useful for pictures and such but too public for my taste, and i fear it's becoming the next myspace but worse. i don't like feeling obligated to add people to my facebook because i'm forced to interact with them five days a week for the next several months.

i wonder if i should just turn this all into friends-only? it'd be kind of a bother since the new mass-privacy edit tool's only for paid customers.
i'm a bit uneasy regarding the future of livejournal as a website. i dunno what they're up to.

well sleeping -

robsavestheday @ 2006-12-29T23:42:00

2006-12-30T04:42:19Z

saddam's dead.

robsavestheday @ 2006-12-25T00:55:00

2006-12-25T05:57:28Z

to you all that are here in robert's mindspace tonight,

i wish you and your kin a very Happy christmas.

sweet dreams -

a point on which the soul may rest its intellectual eye

2006-10-31T05:38:25Z

weekend was a baker's dozen of fun.

friday after school phoebe dropped us and geof down in smithfield at bill's. chiled, ate chips, then went with phoebe, bill, geof, nick and joe greene to see saw 3. movie was pretty ridiculous, though i wasn't too crazy fazed by it. i sorta have to see it again because i spent some of the time laughing, and i missed the beginning scene. and i didn't really pay attention as much as i should've.
we left the movie and met up with everyone, found out nick left the theater early.
poor nick.
slept over bill's, chilled with him and rob behind a wall.

saturday was spent sleeping, then carving pumpkins at nick's house. i carved a vampire with bats.
got our togas on and went to go to the party at rob's uncle's friend's mansion thing.
but we replanned and decided to chill with just us, being me, rob, bill, joe greene, cory, and rob's uncle. drank a few beers, ate chips, bbq pizza, stayed up all night.

sunday we left, grabbed some dunkin donuts, i hitched a ride from my mom, slept, worked, fucked around, slept.

today was fun.
school was easy. programming consisted of listening to Obscured By Clouds by pink floyd and playing slime volleyball with anthony. i iwned.
worked, ended up getting a southern accent from talking to southern people for 4 hours.
hung around, chilled, got curly fries and jalapeno poppers at douglas house of pizza.
and i TOTALLY HELPED OUT "Jimmy's Kid's" by buying a ton of awesome toys out of one of those 25 cent machines. i am now the owner of a slick snap bracelet and a fucking sweet ring.

tomorrow is halloween.
i have no plans, and no costume.
i might find something.
i would like to skip school wednesday and go to point judith and watch the sunrise, get some breakfast.

i gotta change my hours for work so i can balance it and drama club, which is gonna be a bitch.

hm.

ta -

robsavestheday @ 2006-06-20T21:50:00

2006-06-21T01:56:37Z

i think it'll probably just be men with animals, not necessarily holding them. this decision was in fact precipitated by the discovery of this pic, because FDR is badass.

hanging out at phoebe's house.
drinking lemonade.
we went to shaw's and spent five minutes deciding which Ramen Cup of Soups we were going to buy with the four dollars we had. i got beef and roasted chicken, phoebe got regular chicken and lime with shrimp.

fun rhymes with sun -

Notable men with animals.

2006-06-20T01:25:08Z

i'm going to start a new lj thing, because i can.

s'called Notable Men with Animals. this here is Deputy Secretary Of State Robert Zoellick holding a baby panda. he's resigning though to join some investment house.

more to come throughout regular journal entries -

robsavestheday @ 2006-06-18T01:35:00

2006-06-18T05:36:17Z

that is all -

robsavestheday @ 2006-05-23T21:55:00

2006-05-24T01:56:28Z

i just came to a realization.

there are NO fucking Spike's Junkyard Dog places around here.
seriously, they have, without a doubt, the best hotdogs.
and i don't like hotdogs.

so, let's see.
saturday was steph's charity yard sale, i went over and 'helped', if your definition of help is sorta not do anything and get some free stuff :P
the yard sale went great though, she made about 800 dollars, which was matched by her dad's company, and all that was matched by another charity, so that's about 3200 right there.
then we went to the movies and saw Da Vinci Code, which i quite enjoyed. people said tom hanks wasn't really the right guy for the role, and maybe he isn't, but he's still my favorite actor.
*dreams soft dreams of tom hanks*

sunday, i don't think anything happened.

monday i chilled with steph, and later tris. steph and i went to this cool place in the woods, and then the cemetary nearby, and played Super Smash Bros later.

so, since i've been on a lax trend of updating, i basically forgot to update about my haircut.
i did in fact get a haircut and dye.

oh yeah.
lewl

and now, for pictures:

it was one badass rainbow

stephanie bo bephanie

"I AM BATMAN"

"I knowww, would you like some of my ice cream?"

what's that? oh yeah, that's right.
*flexes*
...
*nothing happens*

so there's some pictures.

today was, besides school, a good day.
:)

out -

robsavestheday @ 2006-05-19T20:09:00

2006-05-20T01:07:51Z

i dunno why i never really update this. i guess i don't have much of a life going on.

this week's been a little crazyish. basically haven't come straight home all week, with drama rehearsals and working on my segment for the school news show.
lack of sleep has made me hella weird, heh. i haven't been this tired in a longgg time, but i'm feeling better than yesterday.
the performance was wednesday, and it went off basically perfect, which is pretty funny cuz the same thing happens every time; we do awful in rehearsal, mrs. rodrigues makes us feel like shit, then we do great. so wtf.
worked on the editing for the news show alll week, took me forever. but it was cool, it came out basically fine, everyone loved it. i fucking love shuggy, the kid's hilarous.
today was last day for seniors, everyone was kinda boo-hooing. it's going to totally suck not having seniors around, most of the people i acutally got along with were seniors, and most everyone in my class sucks.
i'm kinda just sick of dealing with people in general. i'm sick of having to keep an act around everyone. most people are stubborn, stupid, and uninteresting anyways.
people in general just irk the fuck out of me, they're so illogical and emotional.
maybe i'm just fucked up.
i just wish everybody would stop complaining all the time. i try not to talk about my shit because everybody else has got shit they're dealing with, noone wants nor needs to hear my shit, y'know?
sorry if i'm being whiny, just in a blegh mood.

blegh.
so, senior year coming up.
gotta start choosing colleges and shit.
except i have absolutely no idea what i want to do with my life.
so, that kinda sucks.
i don't really think i want to be a neurologist, i might still want to do chemistry, but biology always kinda bored me, i know i shouldn't do something just because i'm pretty good at it.
i wouldn't want to make a career as a writer, because god knows how many poor, unpublished writers there are out there trying to make a living.
there's plenty of stuff i'd like to do, like films, acting, cartoons; i just can't think of something i'd want to do for a career.
i guess i'll just do stuff on the side, and if i can get money off of it i'll go into it deeper.

i got a random letter in the school about being in the national honor roll.
ladies and gentlemen, the world has come to an end, heh.

all in all, things aren't really that bad.
my mind's just muddled, i can't complain -

robsavestheday @ 2006-05-05T15:08:00

2006-05-05T19:09:16Z

s'been a pretty long week.

monday was the Humanities Scholars collaborative, went pretty well. we did a video on the Day of Silence.
tuesday i studied for the AP us history exam, and chilled with phoebe, and totally bought green tea and combos and a fucking CHARLESTON CHEW.
wednesday, more whatever, i barely even remember this week, heh.
thursday we had drama rehearsal. i am so sick of mrs. rodrigues and her fucking crap, she makes a big deal out of everything, she's so melodramatic and fake. i really doubt i'm doing drama next year, i can't stand her, and her little nervous laugh shit thing.
study group for history was a lot of fun though, we were talking about seinfeld episodes, it was hilarious, i've never seen mr. mcgrath laugh that much, wicked funny.

today was the big exam.
i'm pretty sure i did fine on multiple choice. the dbq was pretty good but i took way too long, so i had to rush on the last two. i'm shooting for a 4, i probably didn't put enough on the free responses for a 5.
then i didn't get to eat lunch because i had no money.
and then i got to take a math test :D
it was ridiculous, i could barely think. but mr. mongiat said i could retake it if i did lousy, so that's cool.
then in spanish ms. cicero was bugging the shit out of me, because i was already exhausted and hungry and she was busting my ass because it was friday, which is the day of the week that we have to speak only spanish.
but now i am out, it is the weekend and a beautiful day, and i am about ready to pass out, heh.
hanging out with phag and phoebe later, should be a good time and such.
for now, i bid you all adieu -

robsavestheday @ 2006-05-03T22:34:00

2006-05-04T02:35:17Z

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better update later -

"To be ignorant of one's ignorance is the malady of the ignorant."

2006-05-03T03:44:05Z

so people are dying of starvation.
http://www.cnn.com/2003/WORLD/africa/01/25/africa.famine/
and does anybody know about the humanitarian crisis in Northern Uganda? i think maybe a few do.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Conflict_in_Northern_Uganda
i'm not trying to make people feel bad, and i'm not playing any blame games here. i just want people to be more aware, just get you guys to think. you oughta read these articles, maybe read the news more.
just thought i'd help put stuff in perspective.
i dunno, it bugs me when people get too swept up in little details and miss the big pictures around them.
and jesus, if any of you think this is about you in particular, then you're all way more narcissistic than i thought.

please excuse me, i'm not in a very tolerant mood right now -

Conversations with a robot, year 20XX

2006-03-31T01:05:04Z

ijustmakestuffup: do you feel that reiterating everything i say provides for stimulating discourse?
SmarterChild: What would happen if I were to feel that reiterating everything you say provides for stimulating discourse?
ijustmakestuffup: you'd die
SmarterChild: I'm not going to die just because you say so.
ijustmakestuffup: what if i was a magician?!?!?!
SmarterChild: I do not know.

seven strings of bridges to heaven,
i hate the number seven,
somewhat purplish in my head.
i'm partial to 3 and 5, they're green and yellow,
awfully mellow fellows, though 7 times 5 is 35.
a vain conundrum, ushering in deep wonder,
mind is surely asunder, the innate psychoses of a synesthete with ocd.
it's pretty neat, and quite a treat,
to reap the treasures sent of a Resident whose precedence is absolute.
what color is He? i see an omniscient blue,
a subtle hue of rue for neverending trends of unholy civilization,
a patient Parent who yearns for bliss in ignorance.

call it finished, i could go on but i think i'm done.
run -

robsavestheday @ 2006-03-29T22:40:00

2006-03-30T04:15:10Z

i see the argument for affirmative action, but really, i just don't think two wrongs make a right. wasn't the point of civil rights to make it so everyone was given the same opportunities? and now the ideal solution is to merely change the group of people who are discriminated against? i know i feel kinda bad that a man gets a scholarship on his heritage, and not based on his indiscriminate talents. i don't think anyone should be discriminated for or against based on something so trivial as skin; but rather they be disciminated based on skill, on effort, talent, intelligence, details of substance and importance. when you really think about it, it's pretty pathetic how worked up we can still be over the color of skin, or cultures different than ours. how little so many minds are.
also, i wish the meaning of the word discriminate didn't change to mean "hate specific people".
also, i'm so sick of fucking PC and government intervention. if you've ever seen penn & teller bullshit there's some great, common-sensical arguments about our basic rights. i hold firm the belief that people should be able to say what they want. this means if someone wants to talk about how they hate jews and faggots, fine, let them. just because i, and a lot of people, don't agree, doesn't mean we can oppress him and tell him what he's not allowed to say...funny how people try to take away the freedom of individuals because they feel the individual's belief is unfair to people's freedoms. wrap your head around that.

i can't stand being in highschool anymore. i don't think i could seriously endure one more year.

sleep -

robsavestheday @ 2006-03-24T15:29:00

2006-03-24T20:30:10Z

if you guys haven't heard about the Abdul Rahman case, check this out:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Abdul_Rahman_%28convert%29
seriously, it's ridiculous. he's being charged with apostasy, the crime of converting from his Islam beliefs to be a Christian. read the article, it's interesting.
when i read it i just thought about how easy it'd be for me to choose any religion i want. it's a shame how people take their freedoms for granted in this country.

i think schools force kids to be far too concerned about grades to actually care about learning. i swear, everyone is like, "take hard classes, get extracurricular, get good grades, that's what the colleges want." WHY IS EVERYONE SO FOCUSED ON COLLEGE. like that's the ultimate career end, you have to diversify yourself and go to this college, not that college, and do well and blah blah. it's as if life has become a fucking template you have to follow. i wish i could learn in an environment that encourages discussion and questioning, where the students can contribute to the direction of the class, instead of just doing 18 similar math problems and a quiz.

the kids in my grade, my 'peers', depress me. i don't even know how to describe them, they're just so typical, boring. i can't stand hick towns. i wish there were more intellectual-ish people in my classes so we could actually have engaging debates and such without people getting excited that i used a vocabulary word.

"Society everywhere is in conspiracy against the manhood of every one of its members. Society is a joint-stock company, in which the members agree, for the better securing of his bread to each shareholder, to surrender the liberty and culture of the eater. The virtue in most request is conformity. Self-reliance is its aversion. It loves not realities and creators, but names and customs."
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

fulfillment, and peace, are the only things we can really hope for -

robsavestheday @ 2006-03-14T19:50:00

2006-03-15T01:08:46Z

ugh.
day started out shitty. four hours of sleep, no time for breakfast, had to sprint 50 yards for the bus.
managed to get some breakfast and throw my mind in high gear.
i was basically flying through the rest of the day, i haven't seen my brain function that well in a while, i did the harder of the two AP essays and i was answering all the math questions in my head while helping those around me who were two questions behind.
i hate feeling like an elitist just because i'm smart.
i guess some people get annoyed because i am: oh well, i didn't ask for it.
i didn't ask for everything to be easy, for it to be basically no effort to ace tests and write essays the night before and get praise for them, i didn't ask for it. it makes me feel bad that i can fly through all of this with no effort while others struggle for b pluses.
grades should be given on effort just as much as aptitude.

i got bored in tv productions and wrote a little poem.

breakfast, purported as vitally whole,
cereal in bowl,
coffee's gone cold.

lunch is such a confuzzled foe-meal,
not a big deal,
hardly it's real.

supper's a simple thing, hearty and square,
need tupperware,
leftovers in there.

i didn't put a lot of effort into the structuring so it's not rhythmically perfect or anything, but i thought it was kinda cute.

Californication is a good album, i'm really starting to dig '90s music more and more. listened to Nevermind by Nirvana a couple days ago, really good too.

this game here is addicting as crack. i managed to get to the second level once; tell me how you do.

i don't think this week will be too bad -

just do it, jeez

2006-03-13T23:28:16Z

i gotta quit whining about my life problems. my shit would be far improved if i weren't such a chicken. sigh+ugh.
= sugh.
no, scratch that.

working outside the other day a nail stabbed through my shoe and cut my foot a bit. here's hoping i don't get tetanus, since i don't have medical for a shot, heh.

i love walking to the gas station down the road and buying a toasted turkey-ham-bacon-chicken-mozzarella-american-lettuce-onion-red vinaigrette sub on italian herb and cheese bread with the new arizona black tea drink.

i need a new copy of starcraft: brood war, i have no idea where my old one's at *frowny face*
this game rules, i just wish blizzard would actually make a freakin' sequel.

where the hell do you find girl scout cookies anyway? they don't sell them at stores do they? and why are they so famous? must be because it's the only thing they actually do that's useful *oh snap*

i think i'm gonna start working on something soon.
i'm probably gonna start doing some writing for a comic idea i thought up.
i just gotta stop slacking and get the stuff i need to get done done.

signing off -

robsavestheday @ 2006-03-13T02:32:00

2006-03-13T07:41:30Z

i don't think i'm going to school tomorrow.
it's a half day anyway.

tortilla chips are tasty.

i gotta stop procrastinating on stuff.

i'm tired.

night -

robsavestheday @ 2006-03-12T12:38:00

2006-03-12T17:51:02Z

i think the problem with most people is they just think too much.
if people overanalyzed stuff less, they might be happier in general.

check out the new icon i made using photoshop trickery and some animating. it's fun using photoshop, because i make it look so easy, heheh.
i also have a new layout, if anyone actually cares. it's simple, but i like it.

i was having an argument with myself last night about the creation of man. it was a really interesting argument. i held the point that, how can humans, who are amazingly complex creatures, suddenly have come into life out of pure chance placement of some spare atoms and a few million years? the improbability is outrageous, there must have been more influence than that.
then i countered with, well yes, it is extremely improbable, but probability is the chance of something occuring. now, just because the odds are extremely out there, in a practical sense it doesn't rule out the possibility; therefore, improbability does not denote impossibility.
i conceded to this point of view, though i am still iffy about the whole thing in general.
is talking to yourself weird? heh, i do it a lot.

next topic: what is the function of emotion? i think it is much more complex than simply survival skills; i started thinking about it last night. i really think it is connected solely to the egotistic nature of all humans. and that made me think of what sets aparts humans so much from animals; though humans do have empathy towards others, they are naturally a self-concerned creature.
think about it.

answers only bring more questions.
my history teacher was talking about that.
he was saying how, the more history he learned, the more unsure he felt about certain sides he took with issues today.
it's easy to say, 'i defend this side', but you must realize always that the world is not black and white.

i really want to get a pair of bongoes and learn to play.
i drum a lot in class on desks and stuff, it's fun, and i've always liked percussion.
i like the idea of them; two drums, you use your hands, each drum emits a different sound.
i know i could make some really awesome beats with bongoes.

also, i'd like to get some throwing axes.
how badass would it be to learn how to throw throwing axes?
answer = duh, very.

i gotta stop drinking so much ginger ale.

i'm happy that i'm exercising more.
i don't really see how it'll be useful, but i feel a little better about myself.

it isn't freezing cold out.
i might go for a walk.

goodnight, moon -

robsavestheday @ 2006-03-12T02:06:00

2006-03-12T07:10:46Z

i went to the bathroom a couple minutes ago.
i was sitting there, and i saw this weird bug thing walking funny and slowly, it looked hurt or dying.
so i picked up something flat, nudged the bug onto it, opened the window and dropped him down.
as i left the bathroom i was thinking about what the bug must've felt, being picked up and thrown out of a window onto the ground.
and then i thought, well, from the bug's point of view, there's no way he could've known what i was doing; all he saw was lightness, then panic as he fell, then flat ground and fresh air, a better chance for life in his natural environment.
and it made me think of how people never really know what's going on in their lives, and they have doubt and feel they're all alone in the struggle, but maybe they just aren't able to perceive the guiding hand.
i dunno, just a little philosophy for you all.
so i'm done updating for now -

no, don't soak my pants! china?

2006-03-06T03:45:31Z

drama festival was really fun.
lots of really friendly and fun people, free panda bears, and plenty of really interesting and hilarious plays.
there's some pictures here
i won an award for my acting in the play.
it's pretty cool. not that i'm ungrateful, but i guess the award doesn't mean as much to me as it does to others. it's nice, but it isn't like my acting was the fruit of effort; i guess i'm just an alright actor by nature.
and i feel bad that i get an award and almost none of the rest of the cast doesn't; that's what bugs me.
i wish i could give my award to someone who it would mean a lot to.

people seem quick to judge.
i say, let he who is without sin cast the first stone.

we're always so busy sitting in our caves, staring at the shadows on the wall. and when someone leaves the cave and sees the light, he cannot return and convince his fellow men of the light, because there are no words to express what he saw. language is based on experience; many times there are not words for things we are unaccustomed to.
plato's allegory is a really interesting metaphor.

hung out at tristan's today, got some subs from subway, watched The Aristocrats. it was funny how his sister's boyfriend's reacted to the movie; interesting to see how normal people react to things, lol.

i'm gonna get some sleep -

robsavestheday @ 2006-02-16T20:40:00

2006-02-17T11:49:43Z

yesterday was kinda blegh.

quiz bowl first period, questions were really easy, i got most of them.
except i didn't sign up to be on the quiz bowl.

kinda got really mad at myself today because i was basically calling some kid stupid, and a friend of his overheard me and said something, and i felt really bad about it. i apologized a bit later, but i still felt bad so i kinda just got out of there and sat in the library. i don't really like making fun of people, and i hate feeling like some elitist.
being smart sucks sometimes.

rest of the day wasn't so bad, though i did pretty bad on a chemistry quiz, which sucked because i'm usually doing really well in chemistry.
mr. liska says i can probably take a requiz.

after school dan came over, and we rode bikes and jogged a bit, and then threw some pizza that i got from Gregg's that i threw in the freezer into the oven, and made some banana/orange/vanilla smoothies.
then i wrote an essay. woo essay.

le sigh.

i'm pretty tired, i'm gonna get some sleep.
everyone who comments has to post a picture of a koala, or i'll delete your comment.
except i won't. but do it.
like so: <img src="websitekoalapicture.jpg">
night all -

just the PMS.

2006-02-06T03:36:34Z

sorry about taking my earlier post down, i was just kinda in a bad mood.
i was thinking i might be somewhat bipolar, my mom has it as do a few other relatives, so it isn't illogical.
i'm feeling pretty good right now, i went for another long bike ride, only stopped once for a break.
you'd be surprised what exercise does for your mood and sleep habits, i slept great the other day.

so, since i'm feeling more confident about it, here is my little summary.

if there's one thing that bugs me, it's when people get ideas and opinions into their heads and keep them forever.
like, if someone's mother cooked them lasagna, and she did a really poor job cooking it, the kid is going to think all lasagna sucks and never try it again.
ever since i was young i've always hated misconception, because even at a young age i knew people would get the wrong ideas about things and never change their mind.
i always try to have an open mind about things. things that i didn't like or had a bad experience with, i try to come back to in a different situation, to see if it has changed, or if i have.

another thing i loathe is misinformation, including propaganda, and the media.
facts and things are constantly being twisted by misinformation and policitians in order to cause confusion and spread of the wrong ideas.
it doesn't matter if the misinformation is even that confusing; just the introduction of it is enough to cause confusion and doubt.

NOTE: Please do not even bother to read the rest of this if you don't plan to read THE ENTIRE THING. Read it all, or don't read it at all. Set it aside for when you have the time, or just don't read it. If you have a comment, please let it be concerned on your thoughts about it, not just a reiteration on your personal beliefs without taking anything from it:

for quite some time i have been seriously researching thoroughly basically every common legal and illegal drug.
cannabis, lsd, dextromethorphan, hydrocodone, salvia divinorum, methamphetamene, mdma, dmt, sinicuichi, rivea corymbosa, the list goes on and on.
you'd be surprised at the information i've found about quite a few of these.
i don't do this because i am some loser druggie - if anything, i do this researching to cast away the shadow that many drug addicts cast. people who abuse drugs constantly for kicks are using them for the wrong reasons. i felt that the random heresy being projected onto me and others by tv, pamphlets, etc. wasn't proper information backed up by facts, and i took it onto myself to begin combing the internet for hard facts.
a few drugs that have been purported as dangerous and unhealthy are, in fact, not nearly as much.
many are for their own reasons, especially harder drugs such as methamphetamine, heroin and cocaine, which i consider far too dangerous for any realistic consumption.
then there are some whose dangers are complicated, and would stem from abuse, but would be useful in research.
and then there are a few whose dangers are quite slight.
and one whose dangers are so slim it's quite laughable at all the controversy it has caused.
i speak of cannabis sativa (or indica), more commonly known as pot.
an article that basically follows my argument can be found here, it's a good article.
pot does not damage the mind in any way, it does not permanently affect memory or body. pot's main health issue is basically the damage it does to your lungs. let's start there.
the dangers of pot to your lungs has been far exacerbated by opponents of the drug, seeing as it is the only definite health concern pot poses.
they say pot is worse than cigarettes, and will do more damage.
i say, who in their right mind would smoke 40 marijuana cigarettes in a day? not me at all.
anyone who is mature and sensible that wanted to enjoy pot would need less than 5 marijuana cigarettes a week.
also, smoking marijuana is not your only option. it is a simple process to extract the tetrahydrocannabinol molecules from the plant matter and make "cannabutter", which can be used to cook various foods including, yes, pot brownies.
or use a water bong, which filters the smoke. or a vaporizer, a safe process of heating the leaf matter to a specific temperature to release the THC chemicals.
another opposition to pot is the wild and 'delerious' state of mind it puts you into, making a normal, healthy person into an uncontrolled loon.
this is often greatly overexaggerated. i don't mean to say that one isn't inebriated while using marijuana, and should exercise care, but the extent advertised by biased opponents is quite slanted. if anything, one under the state of marijuana is comparably more controlled than someone under the influence of alcohol. if anyone cares to read an interesting research article, here is a well-written research paper on impairment, and here is another good comparison article.
i think that the number of restricions put on marijuana is ridiculous. hundreds of thousands of people are convicted each year of simple possession. millions of dollars of tax money are being used to combat marijuana use, when it could be better focused on the rising problem of meth labs popping up everywhere, a problem which i read about in a Newsweek article. when you think about how much safer and, in fact, beneficial marijuana is compared with legal substances such as alcohol, it's hard to believe that marijuana is illegal and hard liquor isn't.
these laws are doing nothing to halt the use of marijuana. if marijuana were made legal, it would probably be harder for underage kids to gain access to it. i've talked to friends and read many experiences of other people, and it's a pretty common opinion that alcohol is more complicated to get than pot.
the medicial and economical opportunities for marijuana are endless.
READ THIS if you would like to get some real facts about marijuana.
i personally believe it is possible for marijuana to be legal, not only for medical and economical use but for personal enjoyment as well. i don't see why responsible mature adults can't be able to enjoy marijuana, which is no more dangerous (if anything less) than alcohol. i don't believe the government has to step in and legislate away every controversial subject.
i have opinions on other stuff, but i believe i've passed my limit for the day.
to conclude: i believe that with careful and responsible use, drugs like marijuana could be used in society. other drugs could be used in research and medicine effectively without illegalizing it completely. i'm not purporting abuse of illegal drugs, nor am i a drug abuser: friends of mine should know me better than that. i just really don't see the reasoning behind marijuana still being completely illegal and with the harsh punishments it carries.

i hope you actually read this whole article and are mature and open-minded enough to have actually taken something from it. i don't write this things to advertise it. i write these things because i believe in the debunking of propaganda and myths, and being open-minded. if anyone has questions i'd be happy to answer.

and a photo that has absolutely nothing to do with my previous rant, it just made me laugh a lot:

i'm going to get some sleep now, feel free to comment, whatever thoughts you have, don't be shy.

ap history test tomorrow, fun -